Buddhist Perfectionist
At times I feel very nervous talking with others about my Buddhist practice. It's hard to explain and I am sure, hard to understand, especially coming from an Adventist perspective. For awhile I was actually kind of angry at Christians, especially Adventists for looking down on Buddhism. All the Christian articles on Buddhism I'd read were really misinformed and inaccurate. The Adventist views of what meditation is were really wrong. I wanted to defend Buddhism, and make people see how prejudiced they were being. I also wanted to defend Buddhism from a personal level. I was still very insecure about my practice. I felt nervous and unsure about doing something so many Christians believe is wrong. So I tried to be a perfect meditator. I thought that if I could practice perfectly and have all these great character improvements than no one could look down on me. The Bible says "By their fruits you will know them" and I was determined to have great Buddhist frui