Let today be the day




Let today be the day.   

you look at your anger and self-loathing, 


your anxiety and depression, neurosis, obessions and compulsions.  


Look at them and see them…not as demons, 


but as the traumatized children they are.  


Then tell them Thank-you.  


In their own way they’ve tried to protect and nourish you, to soothe and motivate you.  


They didn’t know how, but they tried.  So Thank-you


If they are crying out to you now, tuck them in bed, kiss them on head and whisper…


“Go to sleep, little ones. Mama’s got this. “


Then wake up in yourself the children of compassion.  


These children who are kind, fierce, curious, sustaining and beautiful.     


These sweet little ones need your attention now. 


They’ve been weak and malnourished.


You’ve always given so much to the children of trauma that you’ve had nothing left for these others.  


So feed them now, kiss them and let them play.  Let them grow and stand beside you.   


Walk hand in hand with them.


Let today be the day.


Comments

pj said…
I love this. It's something I want to refer to again and again. It is packed with real hard-won wisdom.
December 20, 2021 at 9:38 PM
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